Dellisa Reid, Emmith Reid

2/11/07
Lisa,
God talked to me on the way to church and he encouraged me to make contact no matter what.
So will you forgive me for whatever I did knowingly or unknowingly that caused so much pain and division in our relationship.
I' m so pleased you shared what you were feeling. I had not looked at my abandonment of you from your point of view. In doing so I see that I created more pain than less. And for that I will always be sorry.
Congratulations on your marriage to Emmith and motherhood of Genesis and Livia.


12/28/2008 I didn't know how to share with you and probably still don't. You were right I didn't know how to be a family. I only know I wanted to be a better mom to my kids than my mom. One day I woke up and heard her words falling out of my mouth. I thought I was doing better but that was just a fantasy in my head. I have made my amends to Paul, Matthew, and Kevin and also in a letter to you written years ago and unmailed.
For awhile I had gifts out for your children but finally had to put all reminders away. Funny physical reminders are gone but mental reminders are always with me.
Often in the middle of the night I search for you and Emmith on the web. I found his family in North Carolina and your my space site as well as his. When he expressed a desire to know more about his father I could identify with him.
My dad left when I was 18 months old. I saw him when I was five although no memory of that. I also saw him when I was 16 and my next visit was his funeral. For whatever reason he chose not to make contact with me nor to pay child support. My mother I think thought his family would kidnap me. And I never knew him, his mom nor his brothers and sisters..... At his funeral I was able to meet those siblings that were still living. I really liked them and regretted not getting to know his side of the family.
Years later I moved to southern California and bought a home within a mile of where I has meet him when I was sixteen. I finally came to terms with the fact that he fathered me but could not be a father to me. I thought doing without a dad was no biggy. However when I turned 60 I began to notice dads and their kids and how they inter related. It was then that I missed not having a dad.
Just want you to know your entire family is included at our holiday table whether you are here or not. We discuss all the members missing and are just learning how to put the past behind us and move forward. This Christmas while somewhat weepy was a very close sharing time that I remember from my Christmas's at my grandma's.
Whenever you are ready feel free to contact me.

Private message to Lisa Reid, Emmith Reid, Livia, Genesis

We think of you often and miss you. All of you. Lisa you were right what I did was wrong and I am so sorry. Your dad, Craig, Paul Stacey, Adrian are here encouraging me to say Merry Christmas to you and yours from all of us.